Friday, April 13, 2007
Warning: I'm not pulling any punches now...
Alright everyone, please forgive me for I'm about to vent again. And this time, I'm not holding back on anything because I've already crossed the boiling point by a LOT.
First off, I feel like I'm seriously disrespected at work. I've been trying to come up with accurate ways to describe my plight and disrespect is probably the most accurate way to sum it up. This isn't your normal disrespect either. It's not like someone at work who snubs you or slights you. It's the kind where you feel like the entire office is constantly trying to peck at you. It's the kind of disrespect where by saving someone's face, you get rewarded by having people doubt your work ethic.
Well, I'm fucking disgusted and to tell the truth, I'm fucking tired of it.
I'm tired of putting myself in harm's way in order to protect my "teammate", only to have that "teammate" bad mouth me after that incident.
I'm fucking tired of always having to shoulder the responsibility of projects gone wrong when it wasn't even my fucking responsibility in the first place.
I'm really fucking tired of having my "friend" accuse me of slacking off when:
1. I'm in the office from 8:40am - 6:00pm every fucking work day
2. He comes in to work at 11am and leaves work at 5pm
Do I need to take that fucking shit from him? Where does he have the fucking gall to accuse me of slacking off when he doesn't even do shit half the time.
Why the fuck does my ex-teammate hate me so much when I saved that person's reputation by taking responsibility for THEIR fuckup?! Why the fuck does that ex-teammate still give me a look like I killed her dog in front of her face whenever I ask a question to one of my coworkers regarding a project when it doesn't even have to do with that ex-teammate in the fucking first place?
Why the fuck won't my manager give me credit whenever I do something productive, EVEN THOUGH SHE FUCKING ADMITTED THAT MY EX-TEAMMATE FUCKED UP OUR PROJECT?!?!
Why the fuck are there rumors circling around that half the fucking company is getting axed because the boss is pissed that a couple of people quit? Um...newsflash boss...they fucking quit because YOU screwed them! If you're trying to solve the problem, why don't you try looking in the fucking mirror, because you're the fucking problem!
You know what? Enough is enough! I'm tired of all this fucking bullshit at work. I'm tired of constantly being blamed for something I wasn't even asked to do.
...I'm working in fear of losing my job everyday now. I mean, I'm doing everything that they've asked me to do and I complete all the projects in the time given. There shouldn't be any reason why I'm in constant fear of losing my job. So why the hell is this happening to me? Why is it that by doing the right thing and admitting my own mistakes that the ungrateful person gets promoted while I take blame for that person's mistakes? Why is it that the ungrateful person can get what they want by complaining and bitching constantly instead of being a real professional by shutting up and doing the fucking work? Why is it that while I'm doing the fucking work and shutting up that I still get viewed as the weakest link in the company?
...I try to hide all of this from my wife to save her from all the anxiety and fear that I have. I'm keeping everything inside of me as best I can, but I feel like I'm being crushed from my own anger and disgust.
Anyway, to all my friends, this is what I've been going through. Don't worry about me, I'll learn from this experience and move on.
First off, I feel like I'm seriously disrespected at work. I've been trying to come up with accurate ways to describe my plight and disrespect is probably the most accurate way to sum it up. This isn't your normal disrespect either. It's not like someone at work who snubs you or slights you. It's the kind where you feel like the entire office is constantly trying to peck at you. It's the kind of disrespect where by saving someone's face, you get rewarded by having people doubt your work ethic.
Well, I'm fucking disgusted and to tell the truth, I'm fucking tired of it.
I'm tired of putting myself in harm's way in order to protect my "teammate", only to have that "teammate" bad mouth me after that incident.
I'm fucking tired of always having to shoulder the responsibility of projects gone wrong when it wasn't even my fucking responsibility in the first place.
I'm really fucking tired of having my "friend" accuse me of slacking off when:
1. I'm in the office from 8:40am - 6:00pm every fucking work day
2. He comes in to work at 11am and leaves work at 5pm
Do I need to take that fucking shit from him? Where does he have the fucking gall to accuse me of slacking off when he doesn't even do shit half the time.
Why the fuck does my ex-teammate hate me so much when I saved that person's reputation by taking responsibility for THEIR fuckup?! Why the fuck does that ex-teammate still give me a look like I killed her dog in front of her face whenever I ask a question to one of my coworkers regarding a project when it doesn't even have to do with that ex-teammate in the fucking first place?
Why the fuck won't my manager give me credit whenever I do something productive, EVEN THOUGH SHE FUCKING ADMITTED THAT MY EX-TEAMMATE FUCKED UP OUR PROJECT?!?!
Why the fuck are there rumors circling around that half the fucking company is getting axed because the boss is pissed that a couple of people quit? Um...newsflash boss...they fucking quit because YOU screwed them! If you're trying to solve the problem, why don't you try looking in the fucking mirror, because you're the fucking problem!
You know what? Enough is enough! I'm tired of all this fucking bullshit at work. I'm tired of constantly being blamed for something I wasn't even asked to do.
...I'm working in fear of losing my job everyday now. I mean, I'm doing everything that they've asked me to do and I complete all the projects in the time given. There shouldn't be any reason why I'm in constant fear of losing my job. So why the hell is this happening to me? Why is it that by doing the right thing and admitting my own mistakes that the ungrateful person gets promoted while I take blame for that person's mistakes? Why is it that the ungrateful person can get what they want by complaining and bitching constantly instead of being a real professional by shutting up and doing the fucking work? Why is it that while I'm doing the fucking work and shutting up that I still get viewed as the weakest link in the company?
...I try to hide all of this from my wife to save her from all the anxiety and fear that I have. I'm keeping everything inside of me as best I can, but I feel like I'm being crushed from my own anger and disgust.
Anyway, to all my friends, this is what I've been going through. Don't worry about me, I'll learn from this experience and move on.
